Saturday, November 29, 2008


I was born that way.
I can't help it.

Example found:
typewriter letter to my nana from my mom's mom circa 1990
(I was 2.5 years old)

Katie can talk in sentences already. She can be a stubborn little thing -- gives
Adison a hard time. She should have been the boy. She sure
loves her books --
when he is at school, she will drag out about 4 or 5
them and sit there and
"read" aloud. Jim's feelings were really hurt
she still doesn't want
much to do with him. She was better than
last time;
but often when he would talk
to her she
would ignore him and
if he'd try to pick her up she'd

Apparently, I've always been this way. I just don't like a lot of people. Most people, generally. Especially guys. It's funny since I told Adison at the bar, last weekend, that I don't like anyone in my class, and he said, "Yea, but Katie, you don't like anyone ever anyways." HA! I guess I pulled these same moves over on my dad when he came home from Desert Storm. I wouldn't let him touch me for months, and if he tried to take me out of my car seat, I'd scream bloody murder. I was pissed he left my mom and us when I was 2 years old. I guess I've always been a dick. Adison has a lot of tolerance cos he had to put up wif ME for a little sister. I got away with a lot. Different friends are always telling me seperately that I'm so independent, and that I'll just Do whatever I WANT to do. Fuck ya. FUCK EVERYBODY. 'cept my friends. I'm lucky to have you guys, hopefully I'm not a dick too often. I don't mean it. I'm soft, and sensitive, and girly on the inside. I think there's few people who really get me, or I have let in. Also I think nature vs nurture and experience in terms of consistent character is fascinating. I like hearing stories about what I was like when I was little. My family agrees I was a shit-head. They'll miss me when I move out though. Who am I? It's like a life long question. We're always changing.

-the state or fact of remaining the same one or ones, as under varying aspects or conditions.
-the condition of being oneself or itself, and not another.

So, to find consistencies, is identifying with your own identity.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Hand Turkeys

holidays, down comforters, snow, evening, eggnog, family, cousins, dead trees, scarves, love, drunk phone calls, glitter, books, library, studying, christmas trees, cidar, chai, kissing, shopping, vinyl, new years, new hair cuts, fighting, crying, smiling.

Sunday, November 23, 2008


love is like fairies...

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Donny Miller

I'm gonna friend Donny Miller on myspace 'cos his art is really good.


I spend time as an intern or assistant in the education department downtown at the Columbus Museum of Art, sooooooo I have membership passes, so if anyone wants to go...lemme know. Right now they have a floor installation of like rainbow epoxy resign by Peter Zimmerman ... and you can walk on it. There are Diane Arbussssssses. A giant Chihuly. Ipod tours with podcasts. I'm thinkin I really enjoy hangin out in museums. I've already been to the warhol show 3 times, and the hopkins gallery has some cool stuff right now too. im goin to the urban arts space downtown next monday for fReE fOoD blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa reception ;) ;) ;)

Tuesday, November 11, 2008


At around the 1.5-2 year mark of living somewhere I always tend to become very unhappy. I'm afraid I will never be happy anywhere. A guy in Ocean Beach once told me how beautiful I was and that he really hoped I found what I was looking for. Looking for? What did he mean? I tried to ask him, and he couldn't explain my disposition. We can obviously find many flaws with ourselves, but this one in particular gets me. If I leave Columbus it will be my 10th move. Will I move again shortly after? Am I chasing something? Nothing? Am I afraid of being abandoned? If I leave first, I can never be left. So, I will leave you first. Is this a game I play? bed-head

"I have lost all sense of home, having moved about so much. It means to me now — only that place where the books are kept." -John Steinbeck

+Regardless of race, religion, nationality, or gender, brats might identify more with other highly mobile children than with non-mobile ones.
+Some can struggle to develop and maintain deep, lasting relationships, and can feel like outsiders to normal culture.
+Their transitory lifestyle can hinder potential for constructing concrete relationships with people and developing emotional attachments to specific places, which may later develop into psychologically developmental disorders.
+They may not develop strong relations with people or places, but can form strong connections with the communities in which they find themselves.
+They grow up in communities that actively condemn racist comments. The issue of race diminishes among brats. The community is normally a stronger bond than the differences of race.
+Because they are constantly making new friends to replace the ones that they have lost, they are often more outgoing and independent. Eighty percent of Brats claim that they can relate to anyone, regardless of differences such as race, ethnicity, religion, or nationality.
+Rather than develop problem-solving skills, there is a temptation to simply leave a problem without resolving it. If a person does not like somebody or gets into a fight, they know that in a few years somebody will move and the problem will disappear.
+When a parent is stationed without his family, the children experience the same emotions as children of divorced parents. In addition to the effects of the divorce, brats have additional concerns. When a family member is sent away, the family does not always know where they are going or when (or if) they will return.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Jeongmee Yoon

Talk about gender stereotypes. For this project, Jeongmee Yoon photographed children in their rooms with all their pink (if they were a girl) or blue (if they were a boy) possessions.

Kerry Skarbakka

"Martin Heidegger described human existence as a process of perpetual falling, stating that it is the responsibility of each individual to “catch ourself” from our won uncertainty. My work is in response to this delicate state. It questions what it means to resist the struggle, to simply let go, and the consequences of holding on. The images stand as reminders that we are all vulnerable to losing our footing and grasp, symbolizing the precarious balancing act between the struggle against our desire to survive and our fantasy to transcend our humanness."

Monday, November 3, 2008


i looooove playboyyyy bunniessss. They are so cute and funny and gross @ the same time. I just bought some playboy bunnyyy socks. and I really like the old pictures. last month i read a lot of poetry. this month im just gonna wear my new socks.


Sunday, November 2, 2008

Paris, je t'aime

i stayed in the other night and watched this. the end is my favorite. but i am indifferent. "Through the neighborhoods of Paris, love is veiled, revealed, imitated, sucked dry, reinvented and awakened."

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Dia De Los Muertos

FELIZ DIA DE LOS MEURTOS!!! I love the art from this day!!! I want one room in my future house to be covered with day of the dead stuff, with like hot pink or orange or teal walls, with tiling too. Actually, I would like to make a dress or something made out of fabric with sugar skulls on them.